Well I have been away from writing for a while. I have been traveling lots over the past 2 months both receiving and ministering. I feel so full when I arrive home and so excited to be with my family again, and then the struggle to get back to everyday life comes and it is a bit of a battle to process everything I have experienced and everything I have received. Yet all the while I know that when I’m not given time to process, it is not time to do it yet.
Immediately when I got home from the last trip, my family and I also attended a 3-day long conference at our church that had me receiving tremendously again! So now I’ve been home a couple weeks, and the processing time is starting to come.
As part of that processing, this week I’ve had lots of dreams. For me, that often means, not an epic dream, but fragments of a dream. Often I have a very short but intensely real dream. Either way, I wake up and write down whatever I can recall right then. Realizing that most of our dreams are one way that God talks to us, I value them and try to keep track of what He is calling my attention to through dreams.
Even when I write them down, I often don’t remember them until or unless I go back to look at my notes. That’s why it is important to me to write them down so they are not lost.
About 1:30 last night, I wrote down, “Let’s go back to this sovereignty thing.” I only recall that I heard a man’s voice say that to me, as if in an ordinary conversation and then I woke up.
Now you need to understand that I have been on a journey of understanding for several years. Specifically, a journey of understanding the authority of the believer with regard to physical, emotional and spiritual healing. I don’t recall specifically studying God’s sovereignty recently, but what is recent to God?!
Early morning I was reading a fascinating devotional by Dr. Pamela Legate called, Blessing Your Body. The book is a 22 day devotional that focuses on the meaning and application to your health, of each of the 22 Hebrew letters.
Dr. Legate quotes the results of a study by the Institute of HeartMath that shows that “our DNA actually changes shape according to our thoughts. This same study showed that thinking and feeling anger, fear, and frustration caused DNA too change shape according to our feelings.” (pp.51-52)
As I read, some specific issues from my long ago past came swimming to the surface. Times when I had agreed with the enemy that I had a right to be angry and frustrated or even fearful. The correlation to current body issues seemed to be a missing puzzle piece now found. But what to do about it now? Those moments were years ago. Surely whatever was done to the body at that time is over and done, too late to change now.
At this point, I remembered that I had not checked my dream notes from the previous night and was reminded of the short dream about the Sovereignty conversation.
After I found it, I looked up some scriptures that spoke of God’s sovereignty; His power, Him as creator, His dominion over time and space. I still wasn’t sure exactly what He was getting at.
Suddenly the connection was made for me: God is SOVEREIGN! He is Sovereign over time and space. He lives outside of time, therefore, it is never too late to go back and fix something, because He is as much in the then as He is in the now.
I know that is more than a little mind blowing! But listen. As believers, we serve and represent the ONLY God “who is able to do exceedingly, abundantly more than we can ask or think, according to the power that works in us.” Ephesians 3:20 Perhaps just one small part of His ability being greater than we can ask or think is because He is outside of time and we just can’t really fathom that.
I had a sudden realization or at least a new aspect of understanding that one reason God can heal anything, no matter how long a person has struggled with it, is because the cause and its effect are just as current and present to God as whatever we deem NOW to be.
Secondly, the finished work of Jesus was accomplished long before we were born. So everything related to our lives, beginning to end, was in the future when it was accomplished. Therefore, everything in our lives is already accounted for, paid in full.
So here is what I prayed, “Papa, you are God with no limitations. You created time and space and you do not dwell in them. So, in Jesus’ name, I ask you to go back to that time with me when I agreed with the enemy to be angry and frustrated and fearful. Because you are there with me now, I see the lie of the enemy and I renounce that agreement I made with him and I agree with you at that time, to be full of love and peace and joy instead. I take back everything that was stolen or changed in my body at that time and I call my body into perfect alignment with your will. I call every bit of my DNA back to agreement with your thoughts about me before I was ever made.
I know for some of you that may be a big stretch. That’s OK. For me I hope to come into greater and greater understanding of my God’s sovereignty. Since He has called me back into this conversation, I will pursue greater understanding of what His sovereignty affords me and all those to whom I minister. He truly has so much more available to us as His children than we have ever dreamed. As Jesus said, with our God, ALL things are possible. (Matt 19:26)
I know that I have just scratched the surface of what is possible. What an exciting journey in God to begin exploring the sovereignty of the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.
Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, the only God, be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen. 1 Timothy 1:17